nagpurpolice Chapter 1605 Iced Thoughts
Chapter 1605 Iced Thoughts
--- Kamiko ---
Working on the ice cream had calmed her down massively. It gave Kamiko a chance to go over everything that happened... and she started noticing a few things that were odd. The fear was still there, rumbling in the back of her mind... and even with the new information Kamiko couldn't say she was over it exactly... but it raised some questions.
The first was that... she'd dealt with worse stuff then that prior encounter back in school plenty of times. Then when you combine that with her regular contact with Sue... and she could tell that Church wasn't the slightest bit interested in her.
Kamiko didn't know if the girl was just straight, or if there was something else about Kamiko... but there was no lust at all in that gaze... and Kamiko hadn't noticed.
*Which IS weird. Don't get me wrong. That quickly escalated into a stressful situation and then I spiralled hard. I let myself lock up mentally until the 'fight' part of my brain woke up and decided to start slicing... but it's weird things got to that point. Why was I so scared?*
Kamiko had a suspicion as to the answer and she did not like it. There really was only one. Meg. *Subtle application of fear aura? I can't think of it as being anything else.
I can see Meg just... ramping up my anxiety... and while I want to say I'd have noticed... what I think she did instead was make me just a touch more fearful until it ramped into a spiral and then just... let me loose allowing my brain to do the rest of it.
And... and I don't know how I feel about that. On the one hand it was... IS horrific for Meg to have done that to me. I am in no way happy about it... but maybe I needed to know about it? I'm certainly not going to thank the... the bi... the witch for it.
That was evil and really hurtful and definitely hasn't improved my social anxiety at all... but I was already super scared of Meg when I thought about it too hard so it hasn't really helped THAT either.
I mean... what am I meant to do with this information?! I definitely have to apologise to church, and the ice cream will be good for that... but like... gosh I just don't know. Like... where do we even go from there? Sorry but my not-friend Meg here used her fear aura to cause an incident? I don't want to say that! Is that meant to be part of the plan!*
Yeah Kamiko found that even though she wasn't having a panic attack anymore, it did not mean her issues had been solved. They'd just been replaced by a second set of issues... that while less immediately panic inducing were probably worse to have long term. *I hate that Hunter's idea Meg is messing with me for her own personal entertainment might be the closest to the truth.
Urgh. That's going to be something to tell my therapist... and maybe a reason to make those appointments regular. Mum would probably be happy about that?* Kamiko was just loading the ice cream mixture into the machine she'd pulled from her storage when Pip carefully opened the door and poked her head in. Kamiko glanced over. "Um... are you alright?" asked Pip.
Kamiko gestured for the younger girl to step inside. "That... is a complicated question," said Kamiko when she found she was incapable of answering 'yes' or 'I'm ok' because apparently that was too much of a lie. "I'll need to apologise to Church because it wasn't her fault..."
"Hey she was being mean!" Pip cut in.
*I... I don't know how to respond to that? Shouldn't Pip know better? She's not five she's also a teenager... unless... did we ever establish how these guys mature mentally? No? Bother.* Kamiko was saved from potentially awkward conversation when the machine beeped signalling the ice cream was ready. Kamiko quickly got to scooping it out into bowls using her storage ring to make the process quite painless.
Kamiko stepped back out into the room and instantly everyone turned towards her. Kamiko shivered but tried to keep any misgivings from showing on her face. Everyone was still there, though... the workout crew was now sitting close to the back at the table next to Church and Brook for some reason. "So... um sorry about before but I have ice cream for everyone to try?
Just let me know if you want chocolate sauce over it?"
Seeing no complaints Kamiko made her way around the tables and was surprised that nobody asked for the extra chocolate. Perhaps they didn't know what chocolate sauce was and assumed based on the 'sauce' name it'd be syrup? *But they don't know what ice cream tastes like right? So why would they know it's a problem? Maybe Meg explained it?*
When she got to Church's table Kamiko placed the two bowls of ice cream down and apologised, "Sorry about before Church. I was... not particularly comfortable at the time and freaked out more than necessary,"
"Um..." Church glanced at... Kamiko? No behind her. "That's fine I was probably in the wrong anyways. Especially after you cooked that food. Um... I wasn't exaggerating those reactions much it was... um really quite good. I... think perhaps I have some... issues with food?
I mean... I haven't ever tasted anything close to that... but yeah I'm still sorry,"
"Oh... um... I forgive you either way? I just felt somewhat cornered and then Meg was there, and between the two of you it wasn't a great time..." said Kamiko leaving out a few things.
"No... it was my fault,"
"No, no, it was mine I freaked out..."
"Yes but I freaked you out and like... I get that I can be a bit different at times..."
"Well yes but there's nothing wrong with that... I just..."
"Right but that doesn't make it ok to..."
Brook stared on in horror. There was two of them!